bila dah besar...

Apa perbezaan yg korg rasa klu nak dibandingkan diri korg masa kecik ngn bila dah besar @ tua mcm skang ni??

erm... aku yakin, ramai yg akn jawab, "physically lainlah, dulu kecik, skang dah besar"

mgkn ada lak yg jawab, "dulu besar, skang dah kecik (kurus)". Hehehe.. Boleh jadi.. ye x?

or

"Dulu pendek, skang dah tinggi"........ ke pendek lagi???

huhu... xpe2.. org pendek tu cute, bak kata kawan aku sorg tuh.. Dan satu lagi ayat sedapkan hati sendiri, ORG PENDEK AWET MUDA
(erk~ kantoi diri sndri PEN...... tuttttttttttt.... huuuu~)

Oklah, apa2 pon, overall mmg ada perubahan. Cuma tuk post kali ni (selepas dah lama bersarang blog ni), bkn perbezaan physical yg aku nak share... Tpi, in some other aspects.

Contohnya, ILMU

sampai tahap mana dah korg belajar hingga ke harini?

Kindergarten? (xde kot dak tadika baca blog... nak plak blog aku.. hehe.. tpi, who knows, aite?)

Primary school? (erm.. no comment)

High school? ( I left it quite for some time now~)

1st degree? 2nd degree?

Honours? Phd?

ke tahap2 yg lagi tinggi dari tu? aku pon xtau lah..

Banyak dah sebenarnya mnde yg kita belajar. Tpi, cuba pikir balik, dlm byk2/ tinggi2 kita bljr tuh, yg part mna ada kita belajar tntg agama sndri? Islam? kalaupun bljr, sejauh mana kita paham dgn HATI? and yg paliing penting, sebanyak mna dah kita AMALKAN & ISTIQAMAH dgnnya?

Hurm... mula lah berkira-kira...

"Adalah.. Solat yg aku belajar dulu, aku solat smpi skarang.. So, gnalah tu"

Alhamdulillah kalau mcm tu.. tpi solat je ke?

"Aku ada belajar gak hadis2, tafsir Quran & syariah masa sekolah dulu, so, bnyak gak lah hukum yg aku tau"

Alhamdulillah gak... tpi belajar je ke? paham ngn hati ke? ada amik ibrah (pengajaran) drpdanya?

Mgkin ada yg nak bantah @ berpendapat, blaja apa2 pon ttp ilmu agama, sbb semua ilmu dri Allah.. erm, betul... tpi, seramai mana yg mmpu mndekatkan diri kepada Allah dgn equation momentum?

or,
sejauh mna seseorang tu mmpu igt Allah ketika sdg mngira2 tuk selesaikan soklan Calculus?

Atau,
sekerap mana seseorg tu dpt relate dgn kebesaran Allah ketika sedang asyik menghafal annelids, nematodes, arthropods, reptiles anatomy?

Itulah gunanya & sebabnya, harus kita amik masa tuk selitkan buku2 seerah, buku2 agama, kitab2 tafsir di antara buku2 kita yg tebal tu..

Itulah sebaiknya kita selitkan Al Quran dlm jadual belajar/harian kita..
Jgn jadik cam slah sorg ank murid ngaji aku.. Bila aku suruh baca n practice iqra' kat rumah dia jawab, (cam ni lah beh kurg ek..)

"But I'm very busy, I'll try and check if I can fix it into my schedule"

Aku reply, (yg mcm ni xslah aku)

"You don't try n fix it with your schedule, but the Quran is your schedule"

Tu budak kecik.. yg pada dasarnya, mgkin komitmennya xsbyak so-called 'org tua' mcm kita ni.. tpi, xley nak salah kn dia 100%, mgkin anak murid aku tu dah terbiasa ngn keadaan mcm tu.. semua org wat cmtu.. 'org tua' cm kita ni..

Erm.. bnyak tuk difikirkan tu..

Nak ke kita tua hanya sekadar usia?

2:282
"........Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah, Allah memberikan pengajaran kepadamu, dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu"


Oklah.. smpi sini dulu... nanti ada rezeki aku share lagi.. meh kita sama2 pikir dulu yg dah kita cte2 tdi ni.. kay?

embryo

igt x aku penah ckp.. klu ada rezeki aku akn share ngn korg embryo yg aku wat?? ha... nk tunjuk lah ni.. (ayat tnpa ada niat nk riak ni tau~)










bukan main lagi amik dri 3 angles tuh.. hiks.. tpi xperlu sbut kt mna aku adakn sesi fotografi ngn embryo nih.. haha..

right after ktrg dpt blik embryo masing2.. terkeluar ayat nih dri mulut aku ( yg of coz aku suarakn kepada housemate aku la kn..)

"terpikir x?? Betapa hebatnya Allah.. Cuba ko bygkn, kita buat model ni dalam masa 3 jam. Dgn pening pale nk locate every details, kotor2 tgn lagi men ngn plasticine.. X sempurna n lengkap pon apa yg kita wat sbnrnya.. Tpi Allah, kunfayakun.. Jadi terus.. "

Kawan aku just angguk mengiakan.. pastu ktrg masing2 lost in our own thoughts.. Mashaallah..

Korg setuju x ngn aku? Betapa hebatnya kekuasaan Allah yg dia tunjukkan dalam setiap ciptaanNya.. Bukan satu, bukan dua, tapi berjuta2 maybe lebih lagi yg Dia buat.. EVERYTHING.. literally everything yg kita nampak, yg kita xnmpk, yg kita sedar kewujudannya n banyak lagi yg belum kita discover tentang yg lain..

Sama2lah kita pk2 kn semula..
jgn padai ckp LU PKIRLAH SENDIRI je.. cuba sesekali tu kita cuba wat apa yg kita selalu sebut tu.. kn??

Moga2 hidayah Allah smpi kat kita.. Ameen...

the rose

some say love

it is a river

that drowns the tender reed

some say love

it is a razor

that leave your soul to bleed

some say love

it is a hunger

an endless aching need

i say love

it is a flower

and YOU its only seed.........

so, who do you guys wanna say this to? your ONLY flower?

yang aku suka...

Dah nak masuk 2 bln aku kat sini, kat tmpt org.. Well, skang dah x rse asing sgt.. At least, kt Palmerston North. So, kali ni aku nk kongsi, antara benda yg aku ske kt Palmy nih..

Firstly,aiskrim yg sangaaaat sedap.. aku mintak triple scoops each time aku beli aiskrim.. yup, unfortunately 3 scoops is the most scoops they offer.. =.=" *walaupun abg yg jual tu agak keberatan nk kasik bila 1st time aku mintak nk 3 scoops.. Diskriminasi terhadap saiz.. Ceit!





secondly, A very peaceful town with very polite people. Aku bley setuju ngn sesetengah pndpt, actually, kbnyakan pendapat yg cakap, 'Islam di bumi kafir'. Its true really... thirdly, Massey University of coz! My uni.. A great place utk menimba ilmu Allah yg bertimbun2 kt muka bumi ni. Macam dlm surah Luqman, ayat 27:

"Dan seandainya pohon-pohon di bumi menjadi pena dan laut (menjadi tinta), ditambahkan kepadanya tujuh laut (lagi) sesudah (kering)nya, niscaya tidak akan habis-habisnya (dituliskan) kalimat Allah (ilmu Allah). Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Perkasa lagi Maha Bijaksana."

Plus, aku bley lepak kt mna2 je aku nk, nk tergolek, tido... opps STUDY(kahkah). Spot yg pling best, bwh pokok dpn kolam, tpi Aghort Lect Block. (if any of you guys know where that is.. heee)

nilah family ktrg...

ngn pakcik2 Viking..


Fourth, Tmpt yg sgt cantik!!! Subhanallah... Mcm yg korg tgok dlm Lord of The Ring tu, xtipu.. hehe.. Tpi, tmpt je yg tersgtlah cantik, klu xnak BUKAK MATA, sia2 juga.. Sbnrny, xprlu gi jauh2 nk 'bukak mata'. Kita tgok diri sndiri pon dah bley bukak mata trhadap kebesaran keagungan Allah.. Agree??



first time aku smpt kt tmpt ni.. (uish.. cntik ni klu kawen kt sini.. haha)



ni kolam kt rose garden.. subhanallah...




cuba teka ni apa??? ha... tandas.. haha.. cantikkan?? dan sgt bersih..
aku teringat senior aku dulu pnah kata, "kat sana, tndas sgtla bersih.. ibaratnya kalau kek jatuh, nak amik mkn blik pon boleh.." walaupon abg tu sgt exaggerate, tpi more or less mksud dy smpi la.. then, 2 years after that, wow, abg tu sgt x tipu.. huhu

So, smpi situ dulu.. Aku nk gi kelas fav aku.. BIO ANIMAL!!! Harini tajuk lect, Phylum Platyhelminthes aka Flatworms.. Da~ oh, satu lagi, harini aku dpt blik chicken embryo aku.. yeay!! Ada rezeki, aku tunjuk kt korg embryo yg aku wat last week.. wassalam..




masa festival of culture last saturday.. nilah mknn yg aku jmpa, yg pling dekat ngn makanan kt malaysia..

Shaved ice = ABC
hazelnut caramel = kcg kuda kt pasar malam.. hihi
roti arab = roti nan

bila nmpk islam di bumi kafir..

errmmm... masuk harini genap seminggu aku mngglkan Malaysiaku tercinta.. buat smntra waktu.. hihi.. so.. apa cer aku????

first of all, aku nk ckp sgt cantikkkk tmpat org.. Subhanallah... klu ada org pnah ckp or bgtau korg yg New Zealand, bumi Kiwi ni cantikkkk.... percayalah ckp org tu.. (trmsuklah aku.. kahkah)

ni antara keindahan palmy....


ni kat tepi rumah....




ni klu jalan kuar dri massey, lalu lah kt sini.. amik gmbr kawen kt sini sumpah gempak.. hehe



aku lalu atas sungai ni tiap2 hri gi massey...


maybe ramai dah dikalangan korg yg dpat peluang n rezeki yg sama ngn aku that is to be at the other side of the world, far away from malaysia particularly in western countries akn perasaan prkara yg sama..

Di bumi kafir, yg bila kita duduk among semua org yg ada kt sini, kitalah yg sgt lain dri semua.. yg pling snang tuk wat 'spot the difference'. but hey, Islam tu dtg dri keadaan yg asing n akn brakhir dlm keadaan asing.. so beruntunglah bgi sesape yg berada dlm golongn yg asing trsebut.. setuju?

selama seminggu aku duk kat sini.. xpgi mna2 sgt pon.. dri rmah ke town.. ulang alik dri rmah ke massey... Palmy ni bknny besar sgt.. so, from my observation walking pretty much everywhere I go since been here, aku notice something.

kat sini, kt NZ (n aku rse in most other countries) sgtlah mmntgkan safety pgguna jln raya dia.. kat seme tmpat, akn ada specific pathways tuk padestrians, cyclists (sbb org kt palmy ske cycle) and jln raya tuk vehicles. jdi, jalan asing-asing + korg xgna jln yg sama = korg selamat.. :P

bila dah mcm ni.. ada satu agi rule bila gna jln2 yg dah disediakan.. rule nya ialah, keutamaan pada sesape yg less easy keadaannya..

mksdny camni:
1) klu ada padestrians yg nk cross jln kt zebra cross, kereta msti berenti n bagi laluan
2) bila ada pathways yg terpaksa kongsi as in padestrian + cyclists, cyclists + drivers keutamaan mstilah pada padestrians and cyclists.. korg akn nmpk signboards tulis 'CYCLISTS WATCHOUT FOR PADESTRIANS' or 'WATCHOUT FOR CYCLISTS'.. smthg2 cmtulah..

phm kan mksud aku?? rule yg bgi aku sama konsepnya ngn adab mmberi salam dlm islam..

"Orang yang berkereta beri salam kat orang nek basikal

Orang yang yg atas basikal beri salam kat orang yang jalan kaki.

Orang yang ssedikit beri salam kat orang yang ramai.

Orang yang muda beri salam kat orang yang lebih tua sbgai tnda hormat

Orang yang tua beri salam kat orang yang lebih muda sbgi tnda sayang.."

so?? apa pndapat korg?? nmpk keindahan yg islam dah ajar kepada pnganutnya kt tmpat yg korg xkn dgr azan... org yg pakai hijab adalh rare.. xde msjid... yg hnya ada juz islamic centre yg xde lah besar mna.. x sebesar masjid negara, x secntik masjid putrajaya..

wlupon mgkin dyorg xtau pon apa adab bagi salam dlm islam tuk wat rules mcm tu, tpi from deep within me, i'm impressed.. adab sopan yg islam ajar, yg sepatutny ada dlm diri setiap org yg brgelar muslim mcm dah beralih tmpat.. beralih kat org2 yg xmngucap kalimah syahadah.. yg x mngaku Allah, infact ada yg mnenentang keras.. hurmm... same2 lah kita pkir..

SUBHANALLAH~

ni tambahan gmbar ngade2...

lepak2 kt massey..

pastu on the way balik pas beres2 kat massey... kihkih..

pernah x terfikir?

Semalam, kwn aku Ain stay rumah aku.. (rezeki lagi tuh.. dpt jmpe lagi Ain.. huhu).. Pastu beselah kn, dah lme xjmpa mcm2 lah citenye.. lpas satu.. satu cte keluar.. smpi pkul 3 lebey kami ber'pillow talk' semalam... dlm duk cite2 tuh.. tetiba kwn aku wat statement:

"ang (dy org Penang..) prasan x klu pmpn pki tdung labuh elok2, jln2 ngn laki berdua or jln pgg tgn, org xkn kata depa boypren girlpren?org msti ckp.. 'laki dy tu..' xpon, 'dy jln ngn abg dy tu'.. 'bguihlah dy pi shopping ngn adik dy'.. Len pulak klu pompuan yg xpkai tdg, andai pon laki bini, org plak xtau, org still dok kata.. apa depa buat tuh pgg2??.."

Aku pon terus trpk... Btul gak tuh.. Trus aku blas.. "mgkin tulah antara hikmah Allah wajibkn pakai tdg.. tutup aurat"

Aku yakin, ada antara kita yg pnah alami situasi cani.. N sure pnye seme pon pnah mmberi respon kata2 yg sama.. cuma persoalanya, prnah x kita btul2 fikirkn hikmah ny and kita take some time and reflect ourselves??




Btul kan? Betapa indah n adilnya peraturan Allah tu..

Tpi jgn plak mntg2 pakai tdg labuh cantik2 sesuka ati pi kuar ngn lelaki yg dipggil kekasih hati berdua2an.. Mentg2lah yakin org akn HUSNUZON (brsgka baik).... salah lah tuh jdiknya..

N xbrmkna plak yg xpki tdg bley wat mnde yg sama.. klu dah tau prkara tuh slah.. jom kita sma2 mghindar (wah... dah mcm bhsa Indon.. mklumlah~) dripdny..

mmg btul kata2 yg mngatakn (erk~.. lntaklah.. :P):

"Perempuan yg bertudung xsmstinya baik, tpi prmpuan yg baik msti bertudung"

Setuju?? n ada kwn aku lagi sorg pnah kata.. "Jgn pnah skali kita jadi fitnah terhdap agama, dri setiap aspek.. (termasuklah pakaian~)"


So, jom kita sesame muhasabah n munasarawak diri... RENUNG2KAN... DAN SELAMAT BERAMAL~ (ewaaaah)



p/s: hurmmm lagi 2 hari~

rezeki lagi..

Alhamdulillah ada rezeki Allah nk bgi kt aku di bumi asing... Insyaallah mmgu dpan aku akn start idup kt bumi asing yg tetap gak milik Allah.. hehe..

Alhamdulillah dgn berkat doa parents, kengkwn, sedara sepapat n xlpe pada kcing2ku.. smpi aku ke thap nih..

Alhamdulillah gak ngn rezeki Allah bgi melalui seme2 knlan terdekat aku, yg jauh pon ada. ada yg aku xsmpt jmpa mka pon tuk berterima kasih ats pmberian mereka... akhirny aku brjya gak memiliki sebijik camera..... (tuh yg nk cite sbnrny.. aku bli camera bru.. hehe)

so... aku cam batak sket sbb bru explore camera nih.. ni pon men tkan2 je lgi blom baca agi manual book yg tebal mcm buku anatomy tuh.. (fuuh!! rse hebat bla sbut nme buku tuh! erk~~)

Inilah antra hasil yg aku dpt selama aku mnekan2 nih tdik...

first, ni gmbr normal dia.. (sory lah aku amik gmbr meja buruk aku ni sbgai subjek.. kihkih)



ni jadik klu aku gne pop art.. glerk oren2 jdik nye.. mmg pop abih art ah.. (ngerk~)





klu drawing effect lak cani.. kre lpas nih aku bley publish coloring book dah r.. ley r start isi borg di akhir post ni nti tuk tmphan ek...




ni klu fish eye.. kre korg phm r nape effect ni dpggil fish eye kn?? BOLAT jek jdik gmbrny.. aku figured, gmbr ni sesuai tuk amik gmbr manusia2 yg underweight sgt2 tuh.. xpon sape yg nk wat flyers tuk promotion haiwan trnakan mereka.. kasik nmpk shat n gmok2 sket.. bley jual mhal..
:P




and last, pin hole... kre cam korg ada halo r kn.. rse cm cte enchanted tuh.. time mnri spotlight focus kt korg... hehe... xpon cm barbie (sure cousin aku excited gler klu tau nih)




so tulah yg aku 'batak' kn hri nih.. korg terasa mem'batak'i x??? ngeheh.. Alhmadulillah.. seme rezeki dri Allah.. so, aku hrap korg pon phm mnde2 ni cm sptutnya kte phm. despite keseronokn kte dpt smthg, kne igt.. tu seme hak Allah.. Allah yg nk bgi.. mmg bkn Dia kasik up front mnde2 cm camera nih.. melalui org lain yg gak hamba dia.. kn??

Satu agi kte kne igt.. rezeki Allah tu mcm2.. kte je yg selalu lupa n xprasan.. so, jgn pnah skali mndustakan rezekinya.. percayalah... selagi kite brnafas.. ada rezeki Allah sediakn tuk kita..

p/s: Alhamdulillah gak kwn2 aku dri mesir seme dah selamat smpi ke Mesia n bley hntar aku nti.. hehehe

A bluebottle

"I was watching a blue bottle yesterday. In an effort to escape the living room,

he kept flying against the window, hitting his head against the glass over and

over. Then he stopped launching himself at it like a missile and stuck to one

little windowpane, buzzing about like he was having a panic attack. It was

frustrating to watch, especially because if he'd just flown up a little bit higher

towards the top of the window, he'd have been free. But he kept doing the same

thing over and over again. I could imagine his frustration of being able to see

the trees, the flowers, the sky, yet not being able to get to them. I tried to help

him a few times, to guide him towards the open window, but he flew away from

me around the room. He'd eventually come back to the same window and I could

almost hear him : 'Well, this is the same way I came in...' "

Ni an excerpt aku dpat dri novel The Book of Tomorrow by Cecilia Ahern. One of my fav books and authors. Klu kte cbe paham btul2 apa yg excerpt ni cbe smpaikn insyaAllah kte nmpk mksd disebaliknya.

So.. Nak share???

When things get confusing

Have you ever had a dilemma where someone's treating you so well that you hate it? If you do, then I'll say.. COME AND JOIN THE CLUB!! If some of you don't, then maybe you want to spend some time reading my story.

It started not so long ago. Couple of months I'd say. When I said couple of months, I really meant 'couple'. Yea, it's two months to be exact. I was not sure where and how X ( I'll call the person that, OK?) came. But X just did.

X treated me well back then and X still treats me so well now. X did stuffs that never once any of my friends ever did to me or even... with me. It cannot be denied that some of those times, I did enjoy X company. But... ( yes, there's a but) some of other times, X just some annoying, disturbing irritating brat! (How mean that sounds to you?) That's what I felt or rather I feel.

Maybe I'm just so comfortable being with people who don't really care about me ALL the time. Maybe I'm just so suitable being around people who don't really bug me EVERY ticking minute. Maybe I'm just secretive enough to not let someone like X intrude my comfort zone. Or maybe I just don't like X at all.

But hold on. Every time I come to that conclusion, I'll think again. HOW COME YOU DON'T LIKE SOMEONE WHO'S NICE TO YOU? HOW BAD IS A GOOD PERSON LIKE THAT DESERVES TO BE HATED? So, you guys see what I meant?

At some point I thought letting X knows how I feel particularly about Xself is the best thing to do. But at other one point, I'd say, "X just don't need to know all that. X'll be very upset that eventually I'll just loose X along the way". Then I'd say back, "Isn't that will be easier? Loosing X? Isn't that what I want?".

NO... Its not what I want...

In the end, I just start to avoid X. I answer X once in a while. I talk to X sometimes. It's just unlike before. So, is what I'm doing right or wrong?

Am I right because I deserve to have my own life and privacy that make avoiding X is one of the ways to get them?

OR

Am I wrong because I'm just too self-preserved that I ignored a good person to share my life and that make me a selfish girl at the same time?

OR

Am I just don't have any control on this dilemma?

p/s: HELP ME!!!